Misery: a state of great unhappiness and emotional distress.
That is all I seem to feel. Guilt seeps through my skin and saturates my blood. Who am I? Where am I going? I swim in a stagant sea of remorseful reminiscence. My body moves but my soul stands still. I'm constantly filled with a repition of familar doubts and mantras of self loathing. I claw at my arms, skin under my fingernails, as I cry what little tears I have left to produce. The sky is just a dark mass the provides a backdrop of abysmal grey to my depressing day/life. Goodnight world. Goodnight.
That is all I seem to feel. Guilt seeps through my skin and saturates my blood. Who am I? Where am I going? I swim in a stagant sea of remorseful reminiscence. My body moves but my soul stands still. I'm constantly filled with a repition of familar doubts and mantras of self loathing. I claw at my arms, skin under my fingernails, as I cry what little tears I have left to produce. The sky is just a dark mass the provides a backdrop of abysmal grey to my depressing day/life. Goodnight world. Goodnight.
Here is my first entry. Funny. Just about a year ago I started a journal here. I have come along ways since then. A long ways. Oh my Goddess, just thinking about it makes me shudder. My life is an ever going journey and I am constantly evoloving. I am mercurial, changing as the seasons change and the weather shifts.Latley though I have been seriously off balance. Right now I am simply attributing this extremity with the fact that last summer was very emotional. And now with everything wamring up and school drawing to an end, I am beggining to feel the summer spririt. I guess I am just not ready to face the heat of the summer.Ergh. It's something I am going to have to figure out. But where is the time for that? My main focus is school right now. My goal is to graduate early, PSU, and get ahead start on college. This is just a quicky introduction. I will post more later. So stay tuned. =D
